It's Good to be Back

What an amazing week.  I felt good, I felt strong, I felt confident.  I'm getting back to me.  And I am so, so grateful.  Exciting things are happening.  Change is coming.  I am so happy to feel capable of handling what's coming my way.

Rough times happen.  Sometimes they last for years.  But love comes, peace comes, forgiveness comes - if you search for them.  It's easy to believe that what feels bad has always been and will always be.  But that's not true.  

Lots of things we think aren't true.  I was telling someone this week about how I recognized that some thoughts come, don't ask me from where, that attack us and tempt us to believe all kinds of horrible things.  It is possible - I know - to recognize an intruding thought and dismiss it.  Too often we attach to the thoughts and make them real for us.  But it is just as easy to let them go, knowing that some force, somewhere, is sending you messages trying to tear you down.  But you don't have to believe them.  You can forgive the thoughts and let them go.

I am trying to guard my thoughts very closely.  I am trying to remember how holy I am and that if I remember my holiness, I will have feelings of peace and love.  

Remember the sign I have on my mantle?  I've revised it just a bit to fit.  I say,

I believed in the sun even when it was not shining.

I believed in Love even when I could not feel it.

I believed in God even when I could not hear Him.

I feel like I have made it through some very rough times.  I didn't do it alone.  God led me, my friends and family supported me, and YOU, by allowing me to speak my truth here, made me feel heard and appreciated.  Thank you.

May we all find ourselves on a path of peace, love, and spiritual growth.  As Pierre Teilhard de Chardin said, We are not human beings having a spiritual experience. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.

May we remember who we really are, and may we carry the weight of humanity lightly as we travel on our road home.  Remember that happiness is not a destination, it is a way of life.  Make happiness a practice, and the road will feel a lot smoother.

Thank you for reading my words.  Thank you for walking beside me.  And thank you for being the best version of yourself you can be.  The world needs you.

Love and Light,

Jennifer

Unicorns

Most of you know me well enough to know that my wardrobe is important to me.  My outfits have to feel just right to match my mood.  Some clothes bring me comfort.  I always say, if you see me in my favorite outfit (threadbare thermal, jeans, and UGGS), I'm either having a really, really good day or a really, really bad one.

My friends at work have noticed that my outfits change with my mood.  They say that if they see me in heels (wedges, really - I gave up heels quite a while ago) they know I'm having a good day.  

Throughout the pandemic, it was mostly jeans and hoodies.  Hiding in the folds of much-needed comfort felt good.  I needed to feel good so badly.

The most interesting part to me is how important my choice of pajamas each night has become.  I have to pick just the right outfit.  To sleep in.  Yep, that's nuts, but it is so.  

I have about four drawers for pajamas.  I have summer pajamas, fall pajamas, and winter pajamas,  I have soft and cozy, and I have carefree and light.  I have different color palettes to choose from.  I'm always able to pick out the pajamas that feel just right.

Tonight, I found myself searching for my unicorn pajamas.

Unicorns!  Can you believe it?  After seeking only comfort for so long, I find myself wanting to express unicorn joy again!  

It's been a really, really good week.  It's been a good couple of months.  Two months since I felt the clouds part.

I feel it around me too.  I feel others finding hope in the progress we're making.  We're getting back to good.

I knew we could.

Thank you to my friend who helped me understand that it's important to accept that unicorns aren't always called for,  And fake unicorns are just plain annoying.

But folks, when your heart is happy and the Universe invites you to wear unicorns, wear them with all your heart!

Joy matters.  I am grateful to have healed so that I can feel true joy.  I hope there is something in your life that causes you to feel joyful and grateful to be a part of this great dance.  And if not, find something.  Please, I beg you to find something.  Because this world needs more love.  This world needs more joy.  And if you can heal your own heart and bring it back to joy, you will be healing the world too.

Hoodies?  Oh yeah.  Birks?  You bet.  Peace and Love all around.

But for tonight?  Unicorns!!!

With Love,

Jennifer