Words for Life - The Beginning

Falling in love, and consequently, out of love, is the most physically painful and heart wrenching experience I have yet come accross.

I have had many relationships, but not until now, age 39, did I ever know a truly intimate relationship - emotional, mental, spiritual, and surprisingly enough, not physical.

I shared with this man my authentic heart - something I, in recent years, had learned to do with my women friends, but never with a man before.

It was a life-changing experience.

Almost instantaneously, we created a forum for ourselves in which we could commnicate our hearts, our faith, our love, our passions.  In this process, I healed tremendously.  As a friend puts it, I got a piece of my heart back.  It was a part I didn't even know I was missing.  And now that  I've had that experience, now that I've tasted abundant life, I never want to go back to being the subdued and frightened person I was before.

I found my voice.  I found the Power of the Presence of my God.  I found courage.  I found love.  I found peace, and I found joy.

When God decides to make His Presence known in your life, get ready for an incredible ride.

In all my years combined, I have not accumulated the number of "God Moments" - you know, those "coincidences" that are just a little too coincidental - as I have in the last ten months.  It was when I gave my life completely over to God, in an act of sheer desperation, that things started to happen.  And I'm not just talking about the relationship I shared with that man.  That was only the latest (and short lived) experience.  God's Presence and Power in my life have become completely undeniable.

But now the avenue I had for expressing my amazing experiences in God is gone.  So what's a girl, who has heart and intelligence and a million things to say about life and love and authenticity, to do?

Well, start a blog, of course.

So, to the millions and billions of you who will never read this, thank you for allowing me to take up just a tiny piece of the internet to make a home for my thoughts and words.  And if any of you ever do read this...thank you.

Sincerely,
Jennifer